BEEN THERE, DONE THAT - AINT GOING BACK



Thirteen years I have known you
And I often questioned why we were not a couple
I’ve seen your good, the bad and the ugly
Witnessed your many affairs of trouble
Was there to speak life when your spirits were crumbled

I was young and impressionable
Things I did or didn’t do, just like you, were of course questionable
But through it all, I still held you dear
Too far away from you I could never steer

I am a woman now
Ripe and bursting with glee
If only you knew the interior alterations made
To bring out the magnificence in me

I was all up on your tip
But you wouldn’t give me a sip
It has been a long time coming
And I still require work
But I have matured
The manifestations are continually birthed

Now I see that you desire me
You must have gotten a taste of my reality
But sorry babes; the past is my history
And I am no longer thirsty.

© CLM 2008 All Rights Reserved

WHO IS THIS LOVE

My love if only you knew how good it feels to have finally met you.
Agape love is what I send you.
Understanding and total support will always be here, as well as
Respect, honor, submissiveness and complete care
I promise to be faithful an always true
Communicating at all times, you’ll never have to read in between the lines
Except for this one time

Love has found me and is here to stay. Nothing will change the way I feel about you. There’s nothing anyone can do or say. If loving you is wrong then that’s a price I’m willing to pay. I’ve loved many and always will but being in love is something rare for me, something brand new.

Somewhere deep within my soul I’ve allowed you to reside to willfully abide in a place no other love has ever been before. Many have knocked but for you I have opened the door. I’ve allowed you to be my lover, confider, protector and most of all, my friend. I’ve never been in love, though the mere thought of it leaves me more and more anxious to be.

If being in love is what I am feeling now then I must say it’s the best feeling I’ve ever had. This love always put a smile on my face, even when I am upset or sad. This unconditional love I’ve receive is evidence of how much love has for me.

Despite how selfish or inconsiderate I may be. Love always manages to forgive me. This must be real love, because I’m usually the one giving and never receiving reciprocity.

How wonderful it is to finally be loved back genuinely. I will forever be appreciative of this love sent to me. So my darling love, I vow to edify you, encourage you, and honor you, until I leave this earth. With or without you being physically near. I know my love will always be here.








CLM 2003 All Rights Reserved

Inspired by the unconditional love shown to me by Anthony M. Jackson
Written: 3/12/2003 @ 9:33 am

JOINT SISTERS

Sister Sister My sister my ace
It blesses my heart to see the smiles on your face
Meticulously made and filled with such splendor
Such a marvelous creature; so glad to meet yah!

So many of us and all are different
Embrace your individuality for it’s the personifies you
However, remember the common ground; we are all sisters
Made by God to love each other and so much more
When we JOIN, it’s hard for anyone to ignore

The unity in our walk, the harmony when we talk.
The grace in our stride, the strength that we provide
Is just a portion of what we possess
Anything we build up through Christ is destined for success
We wouldn’t have it any other way
Because we’re eloquent examples of God’s best

When JOINT SISTERS collaborate
We induce Godly love and admonish hate
Oh, Yes! We are tied by more than just our gender state.
We must connect and work towards fulfilling our predestinated fate.

Look to neither left nor the right
Just reach out to a sister and help win this spiritual fight
Minister to her, encourage her, and help her reach new heights
Embrace the wings behind your back
Let them take flight
I see the halo over your head
Continue to let it shine brightly!

© CLM 2007 All Rights Reserved

This Is What I Want From You

She said, “What do you want from me?

He said, “I want your honesty, your time and your loving communication.

When I ask of your opinion, it doesn’t mean I want you to be hypercritical or told what I should do. It means, I want the truth and value your input and seek encouragement from you.

When I ask of your time, it doesn’t mean I want to wrestle you for loving. I simply want to enjoy your presence.

When I said, “I want a self-sufficient woman that is secure and confident; it doesn’t mean I want a woman who feels she does not need me. I request this because I too need to be able to trust you.

When I said, I desire your sensitivity and compassion, it doesn’t mean I want your desperation I don’t expect you to allow my wrongs to be right. It means, enlighten me but still love me despite.

When I said, I need some space; it doesn't mean I love you less or that my love is fading. It means I need time with self and no one else.

When I take the time to tell you what’s on my mind. LISTEN! You can only do that when you are SILENT!

When I walk away in the midst of an argument, I don’t need you to provoke me, and No! I am not leaving you; I am getting some air because I refuse to be violent.

When I tell you how to do something, it’s doesn’t mean I am seeking to regulate rather I am trying to educate.

When I mess up and buy gifts, it is because I am trying to find a way to reconcile. I may not be as versed as you but my gifts are genuine and I give these to show that my love for you is true.

From the day I took your hand, I wanted one woman to understand.

This is what I want from you!”

© CLM 2009 All Rights Reserved

JUST BECAUSE

Just because you have a will
Doesn’t mean it is the right way
Just because you speak your mind
Doesn’t mean all will listen to what you have to say
Just because you have a way with your words
Doesn’t mean your words will have their way with me
Just because you’re appealing to the naked eye
Doesn’t mean that I can’t resist thee

Just because I said, “I was no quitter.”
Doesn’t mean I’ll stay around and suffer neglect
Just because you don’t agree with my convictions
Doesn’t mean that I don’t deserve respect.
Just because your jewelry glitters
Doesn’t mean that you are gold
Just because you’re a straight shooter
Doesn’t mean that you are bold

Just because you have plenty bread
Doesn’t mean you can’t be humble and meek
Just because you claim what’s between you’re inner legs is glee
Doesn’t mean you have to be everybody’s freak
Just because you’re not behind bars
Doesn’t mean that you’re free

Just because we share our views
Doesn’t mean that it is great news
Just because we seem profound
Doesn’t mean that what we share is sound

In fact, just because we can; doesn’t mean Amen!

© CLM 2007 All Rights Reserved

VICTORIOUS

Ok, so I am getting ready for work. I am too tired to even get up but I did. Somethings came to my spirit today and I ignored them. Like this morning, I heard, take that 50 cents off the dresser, you will need it. I left my cell in the house and didn't wanna go back and get it so I told my daughter to keep it, I get in my car and all of a sudden I just felt like praying so I did, that led to me singing and praising God for all his goodness. This was for a whole 20 min straight, then I turned the radio on and bam my tire blew. I was like OMG!

So guess what??? I didn't have my cell phone to call anyone to assist me. I didn't have any change so I had to pull over and walk a mile to the nearest store which turned out to be Giant Food. I asked for change and was told they couldn't open the cash draw and that I had to purchase something to get change. WOW! $1.29 just to get pack of chewing gum. I called my VP and she came and got me. I had an excellent spare tire in the trunk but no jack.

Moral of the story: Don't ignore the pulls on your heart or your first intuitions, they are normally correct. Had I heeded all that came to my spirit, I probably would not have gone through this long ordeal. Nevertheless, I am well and so is my spirit and I still passed this test. You see I did heed the pull on my heart to pray and that prayer and praise came before the tire incident and brought on peace so I was not emotionally or mentally overwhelmed. I just laughed and said the DEVIL IS A LIAR. The battle has already been fought and I was VICTORIOUS! AHAHAHA My God is a GOOD GOD!

Learn to trust that voice inside you, your inner man tells you exactly what to do and what to say, if you only listen.

Unbeknownst of Me

Timid, quiet, full of hurt and absorbing the pain
Is how others used to view me as
They consider that sweet and meek
Now I am bold, I speak up for myself and use the pain as gain.
And to think some people are threatened of my change
They’d much rather I remain the same
But, there is no way a person can tell me
That when God touches your life
That he desires for you to stay as the old
Surely, he wants you to take on the new
All the while to yourself staying true
Reflections of the past is how others choose to see me
However, I do not let my past reflections
Interfere with my current progressions
For if I did, my growth would suffer from neglect
And I just can’t have that.
So many think they know me
Yet really haven’t a clue
Of what really makes me happy
Nor do they understand the things that I do
No one knows my inner struggle
Not my mother, my father, my sisters or child
Only God knows my heart and to him I seek to make proud
When was the last time someone actually took the time to ask, “How I feel?
Before, running to me sharing their problematic ordeals
I only know but a few and sad to say but some don’t care to hear my truth
They resort to their own opinions and then try to force their perceptions onto me
However, I no longer welcome that, you see… I know my reality.
So many are unbeknownst of me
And if one truly wanted to know who I am and where I came from and going…
They need only read my story…
It lies right in my poetry.

CLM 2009 All Rights Reserved

Understand or Lose your Man

Jadedly he succumbed to her querulousness.
No longer able to withstand the pressure of her demands
He contemplated walking away from their relationship
For it was far better to become a happy single man
Than be dismal with a petulant woman
Who sought to change instead of understand.
She said, "The way he demonstrated his ardor Made receiving him much harder." Her implorations were validated
Simply because that's the way, she felt
Yet she failed to realize that
By trying to change his method of affection
She ruined in his sight; her appeal
Their rapport turned into skirmish formalities
From their cornucopia of calamities
All because of her inability to embrace the beauty of his individuality
Rapt in her credence of acceptable affection
She accused him of emotional disconnection
Affronted and gammy by her wrongful assumption
He finally walked away from this unnecessary tribulation.
Realizing that this was wrong from it's conception.

CLM 2008 All Rights Reserved

Untitled

I settled for less but not again

When you choose to entertain ungodly men

Disappointment comes about

I shared my most precious gift

With an unworthy man who could care a bit About the well-being of my spirit.

My flesh is what he desired

And when that transpired Another woman he hired Quality time is what I requested

But by him it was constantly neglected

He pleased my flesh, oh yes he did

I'll admit the brother gave some bomb head

But at the end of it he could offer nix

But a sexual quick fix

He paraded around a false bravado

But really his spirit was hallow

He harbored such a cunning charm

That to a kind hearted woman would do harm

Thank God he ended that jam

But that's what he does for his lambs

I strayed away from the fold

And like a good shepherd

He came after me And brought be back home

CLM 2008 All Rights Reserved

Come A Little Higher

You think I'm wrong

I know I'm right

You refuse my ways

Knowing my will still is the final say.

You choose your own path

Then suffer from the aftermath.

When you fall, I'm the one you call

You complain about your chosen mess

On how you failed another test

Well get back up, return to me and continue to progress

I am the way, the truth and light

But you must first choose to win this fight

One-step is all I need you to make

But I cannot make the decision for you.

You must walk by faith.

You must learn to trust in me and

Activate what you have been taught

Monitor what you allow in your thoughts

The devourer is always lurking around to confuse, destroy and distort.

Seek me now, not later; quit making me your last resort.

Stop seeking instant gratification and

Embrace the gradual process of purification.

The sooner you repent and fully let me in.

The easier it will be to refuse sin.

Why keep tempting yourself with the past?

Wake up; don't you realize it won't last?

Rejoice that you're no longer bound and

That in me, Love, Joy and Peace is found.

Stop letting those dormant folks stick around.

They are useless and their ways are unsound.

So what if they talk, that's all they do.

Don't dwell on comments made by people who

Haven't taken the time to know you.

I command you to walk in your newness of life.

Embrace the road less traveled and behold mysteries

That has never been unraveled.

I have called you to see what others have not

But you must walk with me and do my will to get to the top.

Make no room for doubt or vein glory

I am using you to tell a story

Be a willing book and let me insert the contents

Put down your eraser and I'll use my pen

Don't question, why, how, or when?

Just know that once I begin no one will end

What I have for you my friend

I will restore above and beyond what your mind can conceive

Where there will be no room enough for you to receive.

I am your Jehovah Gireh

You're every second of the day provider.

Reach out to me, praise me, worship me, love me, follow me and I will take you higher.

No need to doubt my greatness I will never retire.

Now assume your position you are hired.

CLM 2007 All Rights Reserved

THANK YOU LORD

Cant get enough you

Lord you are my boo

Never had I a man that can do what you do

You are my beginning and end

My lifetime my forever friend

You created a smile that gleams from within

You changed me Lord

You freed me from the clutch sin

Thank you Lord, for I know I am forgiven

When others stepped out

You walked right on in

You took the broken pieces of heart and put back each part

When abandonment caused my soul to ache

You showed Me youd never forsake

You loved me as your child

You cleansed me Lord, you made me whole

You unraveled beauty I never thought Id behold

Im no longer timid because of you I stand BOLD

Lord, you took away the hurt

When my soul hungered something new

You came and quenched my thirst

No one can fill your place

Lord in my life I will keep you first

When this temple was for rent

You came and bought me out

You purchased me at full price

Now Im a Holy House

You came with a lifetime warrantee

You said you would supply all my needs

You took the time to sow healthy seeds

From you Lord my soul feeds

When all I could do was frown

You came and formed a smile

When my emotions tried to lead me astray

You came along and showed me a new way

When I thought I couldnt trust again

You showed me who to place my faith in

When fear of defeat consumed my thoughts

You told me the battle has already be fought

Past relationships, Oh Lord! You know they cut me deep

Thought Id never rebound from the injuries

Nevertheless, your love removed all the pain

In your care, my life is sustained

Thank you Lord, the head up my life you WILL remain!

2008 CLM All Rights Reserved

WOE is Man if HE chooses this WO-MAN

Teeth straight and clean

However, her mouth is a guillotine

Mac makes her up

But the gloss doesn't floss

Weave done nice

But her mind is trife

Body nice and toned

Like a brick

But she Longs & Fosters an empty house

Cuz a home she does not own

You see

For sale is her sign

Money is her mind

And when you add her up

She still ain't worth a dime

Skin feels like cotton

But her candy is rotten

Luxury is her occupation

Weak men is what she gross

With occasional bonuses from men who earn the most

She has

Harlot honors and degrees

And lacks Gods spiritual PHD.

Bank account is filled

But her spiritual bank lacks appeal

No regard

To prudence and decency

She has a self-deficiency

Evil has locked her soul

She calls herself a vixen

But she really trickin

I wonder if she knows

She's a modern day ho

CLM 2008 All Rights Reserved

Dear Brother

Hello my brother, may I talk to you for a sec? I happened to walk by and noticed that your head was bowed. Now I don't know if you were praying but it didn't look that way to me.

In fact, if I didn't know better I'd say you were crying.

Is there something wrong may I pray for you?

Will you allow me to tell you about a God who is almighty and true?

May I introduce you to the savior who helped me see the inner beauty in me?

I'm sure he can do the same for you, if you choose to let him in.

You see he's the type of God who unconditionally loves despite our many sins.

No matter how many times we fall, he always has his hand to lend.

He even brings people into our lives and helps us develop friendships that strengthen.

He gave me his complete love and care and when I opened my heart he proceeded to do his part.

He's the one that gave me that twinkle in my eye and this beautiful spark.

All I had to do what repent and believe and that was the start.

The start of an irreplaceable bond between a father and child.

He won't let anything come between us, this I know to be a fact.

I am second to none when God is concerned, my faith and knowledge are derived from him, everyday there something else for me to learn.

He constantly blesses me and some things weren't even earned.

He gives his children grace and constantly shows his patience.

Yes, he chastises us too but that's his way of showing he loves you.

A responsible father guides and steers his youngin's the right way.

Discipline and constant love is shown everyday.

It's so amazing to see how he deals with all his children.

Not one is neglected, all are very well protected.

Oh! Did I tell you that he laid down his life so that we could be set free?

I know he's a good God, cus I don't know anyone else who would do that for me.

I know I seem to be very boastful about him but I can't help it he is what he is.

He'll never forsake you or leave you when you're going through.

He's always here whenever you need him with a listening ear.

Eagerly waiting to heal your wounds and erase your fears.

Boy, I'm telling God is good, no one can tell me that my daddy doesn't care.

So if you want I'll help you meet him, I'm sure he'll receive you with open arms.

No, he isn't going to be mean, I promise you'll never have to worry about danger or harm.

Well don't just take my word, come see yourself.

Of all his goodness and that I proclaim

I guarantee once you meet him you'll never be the same.

2003 Chelsea L. Mulzac All Rights Reserved

No Fear Through Warfare

No fear through warfare

Thoughts from the past try to rear its ugly head

I can't look back I must walk with the living and continue to forsake the dead

Run back to my old ways, God forbid

I have shall persevere because I am a child of his

So many decisions to be made and things to let go

Some days I got answers and then some days I just don't know

Wolves in sheep's clothing hang around in packs

Trying to catch me slipping hoping that I fall off track

Surrounded by a heap of shams who still wonder why I don't claim them as fam

Counterfeit smiles filled with deceit and beguile

Nevertheless, my radar sensed the crew and though it seems to be many

I fret not, because me + God make plenty

Loneliness tries every now and then to tease me with the fact that I'm single.

Whispering in my ear, You're never gonna meet your mate if you don't get out and mingle." Yet past landmarks remind me of what I had and what I don't want seconds of

Therefore, I wait on the Lord, stay optimistic and will only embrace a man who truly loves

Single parenting is in a league of its own

Taking care and raising a child ain't easy

Yet still I manage to make my house a home

Trust and believe I too will benefit from the doctrinal seeds that have been sown

Daily doses of knowledge keep my mind ahead

After applied knowledge, wisdom does her thang

Oh, yeah! My spirit is well fed

Revelations from my battles shoot me up the ladder

Insight from Gods word makes me fatter

My spiritual bank runs over; truly, God's way is enriching

Those who can't relate; sorry to say but u suffer from malnutrition

Backstabbers and vile doers a conviction for you is secure

Your defense is of no avail

With God on my side

There's no way in hell that evil will prevail

The fervent prayer of the righteous availeth much

And in case you haven't noticed; God's anointed can't be touched

You've been defeated and rejected

Life without God is just too hectic

Might as well, bow down and respect it!

CLM 2006 All Rights Reserved

U N ME

Maybe I'm not the breathe of fresh air
That to you seems so new
Maybe I'm not the person
Who turned your gray skies blue
Maybe the lovely character you claim to see in me
Always resided in you
Maybe it took meeting a stranger
With the will to live freely
For you to embrace life and see it more clearly
Maybe my wish to live and not just exist
Will encourage you to no longer reminisce
But enjoy each moment of today's bliss
Who knows .
Maybe I could be the basket
That you place all your eggs in
Maybe I was sent into your world
To be your life-long friend
Perhaps, I was sent to you and you were sent to me
To help each other fulfill each others destiny
I'm not broke; neither do I have an abundance of money
But honey I know how to love and I'm rich in personality
So Take my hand, I'll help you stand
Lemme show you the true beauty that stems from a woman
And you can show me the courageous leadership from man
We can grow together
Steering through any weather
We can help make each other's soul feel better.
Yeah We can be soul friends
Together we can be where happiness begins and sorrow ends.

CLM 2007 All Rights Reserved

Shy Interest

He sits in front of his screen

Like a hopeful feign

Skimming through this place

Looking for a pretty face

But to no avail, he's no longer compelled

To search pic's because to him; no longer do they benefit

Therefore, he observes names that would cater to his appeal

Lo and behold...

He comes across a screen names that seems chill

Therefore, he investigates

And what do you know...

He come comes across "Unequivocal_glo"

What does he read "Ambiance of Luv?"

Wow! She seems interesting

He clicks on the page and beholds a lady

Questioning "Is she sweet or is she shady?"

At the same time thinking, "She sure is beautiful, what a creation..."

But his fear of rejection brings on his hesitation

You need to know I C U

And my question is to you

"Why do you always peek and yet not speak?

It is evident that to you my page entreats.

Don't be shy, I don't bite, if there's something you'd like to say, please share.

To listen would be my delight.

Now if you choose to visit without words that's fine too.

But why deprive yourself of more when clearly I intrigue you?

Nevertheless, if a glance is all you need

Well then be blessed and by all means proceed .

CLM 2007 All Rights Reserved